I’m not sure what made me tell her. I guess a good cup of hot tea and kind company opens a heart up. But I shared about how last year held the intense pressure to quit in many areas of my life. And if not totally quit, at least mentally and emotionally check out. Much like an outer force, pressing in and pressing down, I was left wanting to throw in the towel. It showed up especially heavy in the middle of the night. Crushing. Overwhelming. Debilitating. And the reasons were varied. Areas of personal shame. Places of harboring resentment and offense. Wanting things not to be so frustratingly hard (as if God ever promised easy).
But the Lord and a much-needed reminder from another woman I’ve never met kept me moving forward. The reminder that the enemy would love nothing more than to steal the goodness God has ahead for me. And not just for me but goodness for those connected to me. My family, my friends, all of those my life currently touches and will one day reach.
I’m beginning to see that the very places where the desire to quit shows up – not in a prayerful, growing awareness kind of way, but fierce and intense – are some of the exact spaces where it may be incredibly vital for us to stay. That where the enemy is stirring up desperation with his whispers of, “You should just run,” we may need to ask the Lord to help us keep showing up. To stand firm. To give us the strength to press on.
And so I just want to be that gentle voice beside you today, encouraging you to press on. I’m not talking about staying where you’re in danger or where you’ve been resistant to obey God in the leaving. But I am saying that just because something has gotten hard, that doesn’t mean it’s time to give up. On yourself. On that person. On that job. On that creative endeavor. On your relationship with Christ. On getting into His Word. On choosing His ways. On whatever it is you feel the crushing desire to flee from – because of you, because of others, because of whatever is making it all so very difficult.
Cry out to Jesus. Talk to a trusted counselor, mentor, or friend. Make some changes where they’re needed. But don’t quit too soon. Maybe He’ll say it is time to go. Maybe He’ll release you to only stay for a season. Maybe this is an area you’ll be called to fight for over the course of the rest of your life because it matters so deeply that you stay. But wait on Him before you run. I’m not saying it will be easy. I can’t promise it will all turn out like you want it to or like you’ve planned out in your head. But I can promise you that with God, on the other side of trust and obedience, there’s always goodness waiting for us. I know and believe this because He is good, and He can’t not be who He always has been, is, and will be.
Let’s press on where He’s calling us to press on, dear friends. Let’s trust that we don’t want to miss out on His goodness ahead.
Love & prayers, dear friends,
Kimberly
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“I would have lost heart, unless I had believed
That I would see the goodness of the Lord
In the land of the living.
Wait on the Lord;
Be of good courage,
And He shall strengthen your heart;
Wait, I say, on the Lord!” Psalm 27:13-14“Finally, be strong in the Lord and in the strength of his might. Put on the whole armor of God, that you may be able to stand against the schemes of the devil. For we do not wrestle against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the cosmic powers over this present darkness, against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly places. Therefore take up the whole armor of God, that you may be able to withstand in the evil day, and having done all, to stand firm.” Ephesians 6:10-13
“Not that I have already obtained this or am already perfect, but I press on to make it my own, because Christ Jesus has made me his own. Brothers, I do not consider that I have made it my own. But one thing I do: forgetting what lies behind and straining forward to what lies ahead, I press on toward the goal for the prize of the upward call of God in Christ Jesus. Let those of us who are mature think this way, and if in anything you think otherwise, God will reveal that also to you. Only let us hold true to what we have attained.” Philippians 3:12-16